How we found out — Charlize Ferris

Jul 24

Jul 24 How we found out

Warning: Long winded post ahead! Proceed with caution!

Also it is rated PG because there are multiple mentions about the female mammary glands.

“Why are my boobs so big all of a sudden?”, I asked my husband Bernard a few times as I came out of the shower. He gazed at me in a confused manner, slightly disturbed from his gaming in bed and gave me an answer I kind of expected from him - a monotonous and ambiguous “umm...don’t know. Maybe,” Subsequently, his eyes gazed back to his Candycrush game, leaving me slightly pouty (in an annoyed way, not sexy, mind you!).

My period has never been regular. At that moment, I was late for few days now. To be honest, my period been ALWAYS late (my husband would be happy to quipped “always late, just like you!”). BUT this time, I did get more paranoid than usual about the tardiness because at the back of my head, I knew we got a little complacent during our trip back to Ireland about 3 weeks ago.

I brushed it off and met my close girl friends Jas and Ele the next day for dinner. So a bit of backstory: Jas and Ele are both married friends of mine. Ele and myself, we got married just slightly less than a year ago at that time. Jas was the first to get hitched among us and first to be a mom. Her daughter is 2 and she is super adorable.

Work ended early that day and decided to meet Jas for pedicure in Plaza Singapura before dinner.

“OMGGGGG JASSSSSS! MY PERIOD IS LATE AND MY BOOBS SEEM ABNORMALLY BIG NOW!”, I ranted as I plopped and sank into the cushiony pedicure sofa at the nail salon. Jas let out a hearty laughter. “It’s pre-menstrual symptoms lah! Normal! I’m late too! And hungry!”, dismissed Jas.

As we were almost done with our matchy nude color toenails, Ele came up to meet us and we left for dinner.

So over a rather un-delicious dinner in this Korean steamer hotpot place that we will likely never return, I ranted to Ele about my paranoia. Yes, I need to ask BOTH my girl friend. Turns out both of them concluded that “hole in one” is very rare and people don’t get pregnant so easily so I should just relax and wait for my period to arrive. I was also reminded how I got rather annoyed for wasting money on the test kit last month when it my period was late for 2-3 weeks and I end up buying a test kit to find out I am not pregnant then have my period the very next day.

BUTBUTBUT…that night, my boobs started to become sore! And the following morning MY FACE WAS BLOODY GLOWING! Am I watching too much tv drama where people comment about pregnancy glow?! Is it even a real thing?

So….I bugged my experienced bestie Jas again about my latest new “findings” about myself for the next few days. She started sensing that I may actually be pregnant. In turn, she started bugging me to buy a test kit because now she is more curious to find out if I am really pregnant.

Jas successfully bugged me into buying the test kit before her flight at night. This time I bought the dual kit because it is cheaper by the bundle! Haha! Mainly because I felt like I wasted money last month buying the single kit for no good use and IF it really says I’m pregnant, I would probably want to double check to confirm.

I was out with the husband dining at Kohaku in Suntec City that evening. We then rushed home to do the test.

As we got home, I started getting a little jittery because I seriously don’t know what to do if we were tested positive for the pregnancy. Baby wasn’t in our plans for the next 6 months and i felt i wasn’t mentally ready to receive the news. Bernard’s word of wisdom to me was “No matter what the result is, it is a good news.” And he’s right.

So I peed on the clearblue stick in our ensuite toilet. Shut my eyes, cover the results window, clean the stick, make myself look decent and run out of the toilet so that we can see the results together. By now you would know the answer. Positive it was. The pregnant line was very faint mainly because it was still very early into the pregnancy.

I don’t know if anyone fantasize about the instance where they find out they are pregnant - things like tears of joy, warm embrace and dance around sort of thing. I didn’t and those cliche actions didn’t happen for us. I think we are those people that take some time to process. I was too preoccupied to see what his reaction was that to start letting it sink in myself. We went blank for awhile. Awkward silence. A bit more awkward silence. Hug. “We are going to have a baby”. Smile.

I broke the news to Jas who was waiting for my text in the airport. She was bursting with joy and gave me lots of information about what to do next, who to see and stuff that came in pretty useful (and I really really appreciate) for the clueless first timer like us.